a WaLk tU rEmEmbEr..

pengembaraAn brmula stElah slEsai kEring otak dipErah kt sEminar halL ntUk papEr btQ..

pEnat brhEmpas dgn brmCm-mcm bau dlm ktm, dStinasi kame UPM seRdang...

eh, bkn fama, mAha 2oo8..

so, brMulalah lgkah kaki y bila balek rse mcm nk cabut pastu nk p klas sok smbung balek...sndrik cari pasal pny pasal..

ne lMbang kbangGaan anAk jAti qOdah..

mAri kiTa bEli bUah naGa..!
tiQ :saPa nak amEk bsnEs kt gOmbak, anKat tgn..!

mEmEy :awAt aku raSa maKcEk tudUng ijAu tu gaya nk anKat jer td..?

miRa :pErasaAn kO jer tUh..

pakcEk sEpara bOtak :hah, brapEr bErat ikAn tUna ne..?

kaktEh :kalO tEka btOy, bOle bwak balEk x..?

kaWan pakCek tErsebUt :ais kEtul kt tEpi ikan tu bOleh la kot..

tiQ :tawU la aku paliNg pEndEk, asEk knE tOlak tgah jerk..

mEmEy :elEh, tOlak blakaNg kamEra kang..

atT :yg pEntiNg aku sUnyuM..

fiZa :eh, akU nMpak gEmuk..

maKa pEngEmbarAan y pnUh erti ne tElah pun diAkhiri dgn jayaNya..

sEkian, timEkasEyh..

sUmthing..sUmtyMe..

say's mdam..
givEn a situatiOn:-
pErson B stEal pErson's A prOpErty..
pErson A(as a victim) :wUt cud b cOnsidEred bEst deEd to do..?

paStu, ada org jwb-jUst 4givE la..
bUt, mdam kata-nOw that's ZALIM...!

dat minUtes, aku trsEdar..
btOl ckp Fatimah-ukhuWah bkn ntUk dikhiaNati, idUp zEro alaSan...!

sumtYme, we jUst dOn't rEalize..
dlm meniti lidi2 prnafaSan, ada hikmah yg tErbuang..

so, dgn perasAan-yg-mcm-mcm-berani-kecut, aku tawu,
mnjGa ukhuwah bknlah mMbnarkn tgkh yg sErong,
n ada tndkan y prlu dbEreskn..
tu infiNity n bEyOnd...!

p/s:Tim-do feEls my gratitUde..

.?,/.;:''}[..,<+.,,.

da 3 hari cuti..
da 3 hari kt umah..

tp pagi ne ntah knape
umi y prepare breakfast+lunch awal pagi..
ayah plak bsuh sume kain2 n sidaikn trus..

hint biase larh tu..
owke2, kaklong study hari ne..!

p/s:xm blOm abEs yer..Xl

sUmthiNg tu vAluE..

hari ne hari ape..?

rabu..

tp cUti..sebab..?

30 julai..hari ape yer..?

eh, 27 rejab..

owh, patutla..

cuti isra' mikraj..

tapi,

maseh ada y brtanya..

"weyh, isra' mikraj tu hape..?"

nilai2 pnghargaan bulan2 n hari2 kbsaran y maken hari maken pudar..

namun jika pngetahuan n kepedulian y lebih ketara kendurny, bgaimana pula ntuk mnghargai..?

lantas menginsafi..?

lalu mencontohi..?

littLe of my day-tU-daY liFe..

mOninG in niLai sQuaRe..

bdak2 mna ne, jOg pn nk amEk gmbO yer..?

mst sape2 y bca akn ckp cmnE kn..?kn..?kn..?C;

paNas & hUjan

Pejamcelik2, da pn smpey tgh sem…
Nyampah ke dok cne..?eh, x2 mne ad..
syOk ke dok cne..?hurm, xla sgt..

skarang ne cuaca x mnEntu, sat pnas sat ujan..
paper comp2 mggu lps pn ujan lebat,
dah la amek kt mOsque hall..

lecehny nk kne bwk payung..
bju pn bsah..
rata2 rungutan, smpey ad membe kte
“panas salah, ujan salah..”haiy..

Pnah dlu tyme cuti,
Kuaq tmankn umi beli brg..
Pling leceh bla da p berdua ne, xde org laen y nk kne tutup pagar..
Msuk keta smbil rungut2, panas gile pagar tuh, tgahari buta cmtuh..!
Umi diam jer..

Selesai urusan, tyme balek tu mmg ujan lebat gile..
Msuk umah pn rungut2 lg,
Abes lencun bju ne, hujan lebat tyme tutup pagar plak..
Wktu tu, umi kate,
“kalo da Allah nk tunjuk tu, cepat je kaklong..”
Pe lg..?diam je lew..

Lafaz,..biar tnpa niat n sedar, bole jd doa y dmkbulkan..
Mksud Allah, siyapa tahu..?

lEadtrain..

Some piCturEs tEll stOriEs...

biLa aKu tErfikir...

satu weekend y mmg xdak keje, sorang kawan lend some vcd..
so, smntara xdak esainmen lg neh, x salah kn umi kn..?kn..?

antra comedy n sad story, which one wud you prefer..?

n dah tntu2 skali, sume y nk tgk tu tolak tepi cite sedih tu..
cover aje pn dah dpt tngkap tahap kesedihan y bkal dpertontonkn, +la baca snopsisny..

x pyhla kn nk semak2 otak tgk cite sedih2 ne..?
ala, tgk je la cite lwak ne, msti best..!
ha’a tiq, tgk yang ne dahla..

smua org ckp camtu..
situasi yang sgt2 natural ne..lntas membawa diri berfikir..

apa yang difikir..?
ini mentality kita..?
mcm ne je plihan kita..?

kita terdorong memilih crita yang mudah, ringan, n mnghiburkn..
menolak terus keadaan yang otak kate – rumit ne, buat ape nk sedih2..?
sedih2 ne mnyusahkan ye..?
hidup ini just ntuk ketawa..?
sangat tngginy harga air mata..?
apa hnya bhagia yang ada di dunia..?

lalu, bgaimana critany knak2 yang terlontar jeritan deritany d sana..?
remaja yang setaraf usiany melawan penindasan haq..?
nk tolak jgk crita ne..?

barangkali masih trlalu besar keangkuhan kita, masih trlalu tnggi nafsu…
ntuk tdak duduk brfikir tntang sgala karakter ksedihan kt muka bumi,
smpay adakalanya kita terlupa,
air mata itu ada..

hApdEt..hApdEt..

fiuUh..
almOst 2 weEks beEn baCk tu..NILAI..!(x blEy bLah..!)

be+ kBZan bErjuang dgn bKu n alat tUlis..
n I can't bEliEve I'm hEariNg mysElf saYinG dis..:_
.."bEinG baCk hEre, is a plEasUre..!"

ye la, dlu mcm nk nangEs gUling2 je kne pndah nilai ne..
cume mcm balek ke oStEl balek jer..
1 bilek dUploh org, 1 bilEk air, 1 bilik stUdy, 1 ape2 la..
huUhu..

tp lma2 bley adapt la..
bknny sSah sgt pn, tidO nyEnyak jgk, +2 c mEimEi(penghasUt terbeSaoO neh..) tuh..

hUrm, x blEy lma2 neh, laptop x dpt wirElesS, kEring la asEk nk msUk cC jerk..
rindUny kat aPan..kt umah, katil, n tv..
pnyakit melEkat kOtak itam kt umah-almaklUm cUti 3 bulan..

k la, lpas ne bole la sEbulan plak x hapdEt..

siMplE plEasUre to trEasUre..

tuday is dE day which I turn 19..!

when peOple comE out age at 18, me, a year ahead..

supPosed tu mean a big head..eh, a big girl now..

de thing is, dis grEat plEasure should beEn trEasurE alOng..

bUt whEn it had wEnt gOne..

de faCt is sOmehOw distUrbancE..

heh..?

anOther yEar pasSed..

again..

did de valuEs in mE imprOved..?smartEr..?bEttEr..?

mY Lord Allah,

make de End of my agE de bEst aGe,

makE my bEst deEd my laSt deEd,

n dE bEst day of miNe,

is de day whEn I meEt YOU..

ameEn..

rEuniOn acC fcUlty_kiGs..

antara y smpat dikamerakn..soryla weyh, x bley boh suma..bnyk sgt aksi2 y memEnuhi memory, not to mention which trpksa ditapis (hwahaha..)-prangai suma x brubah..ish3

2 drpd 5 sajian..uHuh, sOdap...


resit bukti rimBa raSa rEstaUrant..
hihihi..

sumany tgh bZ mEmbna jln, insya-Allah kt mna pn kita, truSkn brlari..
lUx in any of yOr fUture undErtaking..

I've beEn tagGed..

hupdEt..hUpdEt...
mNtk soRi bBnyk ftimah..x smpat nk jWb tag tu..
almaklumla, cUti2 sKola ne, kuaSa conquer cOmp kt umah ne jtUh mrudUm..hik3..

owkE-kek usRah(ne msti kes kmpunan kek tyme iftar re tu a..?=D)

• berapa lma anda sertai usrah..? -ai ting since skola mnengah la kowt, mla2 usrah bBdak ostEl, pastU smbung usrah jim till afte spm, skang matriX undE karisma la plak..tapi..uhUks..X(
• bgaimana anda bley srtai uSrah..? -tyme kiGs, mstila angGota badan2 dakwah ostEl y atUr, mtriX bg nma kt pic pj, (greatly glad my road beEn arranged smoOthly..) but then, sjak2 kt nilai ne bru trasa kpncanganNy..brula membuak-buak rsa nak mntOpkn pngisian jiwa neyh..
• y..?burke..?knapa anda mnyertai usrah..? -sincerely, mula2 mMg ayahumi y sWoh..tp lpas da join, bru realize de significant of this kind of matters..surely, when people get fond of things, they tend morE..n knapa..?sbB dy beSssSt..=)
• 3 perasaAn stelah mnyErtai usrah..? -1.hilang 'ujub, bru sdaQ dri ne bknnY tara mna pn, de moRe we got, de moRe we want..2.gratefUl, brsyUkur dtmpatkn d jln y bToy..so blesSed tu b wit thEm...3.srOnok laa, + kwn + ilmu + amal, insyaAllah + pahala..
• 5 prkara anda dpt stelah mnyertai usrah..? -1.dpt upgrade smngat sbg pElapiS dakWah..2.iman-raising..3.dpt delete sifat-"nanti2 la dulu..," sbaliknya setting niat n amali-"nak..nak,"..4.topap ilmu, n repair diri..5.being a happy teEn throuGh a nicE way instEad of..phm2 sndri laa..

but then, de moRe ikut usrah, are we trUly apPly de same morE..?

or de same usual empty soul..?betTer check bOut it..

pUnchinG dE aiR..?

eXpEctOrant diphEnhydRaminE..!
or bkn nme saintiFikny-cOugh syrUp..
or sEnanG citEr-uBat batUk lEw..

skali lg dlipUti caRbOn diOxidE batUk..!
hiEw, x pEnahny nk imUn..aSal org batUk, dy pn nk batUk jgk..

da mCm2 efFortS y dkEtenghkn(iyEr kE..?)..
umi dGn sgala kasEh keibuAn mEmbncUh air aSam(uSing dE trUly aSam jaWa) tEap2 mlam..
n dgn sgla sfat ketErharUan sEorng anak gUlping de creEpy sOurest thiCk darK broWn liQuid, pnUh kpyahan..
not cOuntin alL dE kEmbanG smanGkuk y brmanGkuk manGkuk+odOurlesS tastElesS gEtah angGur..
ayah wit dE naQibnEt adVicE-sapU viCks kt tpak kaki n thEn pkai stOkin b4 tidO(pn ikUt jgk taw..)
2 btOl ubat btUk lCin+sgala strEpsil. kWn nElayan, haCks, miNts, halLs...
n thEn lEya plak sWoh kUkus sunkiSt+madU..eRk, xdE pErubhan pn 1 mngGu stEngah ne..
potasSium cyanidE btoy..ehEhE..

weLl, bEyond alL thoSe sCary mattEr, jd oRg sakEt nE nOt bad la, 4 mE anYway..
ayah cmE sWoh mkn ubat jer-kEje umah sumE dkasi cUti..ehEm2..
umi n ngah xde, g kbm..so..?
smalam, sapu smpah, sdai bjU, lpat baju, msak nsik+lauk, kmas umah-ayah y bwat..!
waAuU..!evEn nsik gorEng pg td n gulai tghari td ayah pnya ayaQ tgn..

lGpun sakEt ne kn kE mnGhapus dosE2 kEcik..?
mknEny lamE sgt nk baEk ne, bnyaklaaaaa dosE2 kcik y blE d dOublE-standardkn akn mnJd dosE bsaW..uhUks3..

thEn, walOmacamanEpon..
kenEla reDha nGn sgla prncngn prjlanAn y tiada dkEtahUi rhsiany..
mSt adE trsElit hkmah2 y lnsUng x seda..
stakat batUk jer, nk kEcoh, ape ne tiQ..?
sedAre2 ngkO slUruh dunia lG hEbat dEritany, iNsaf3...

C=...

nothin mUch intEreStin..uNlesS usrah laz nitE was cOunt..

usRah 1st smpEna cUti..haha(da nk abEh cUti, brU tinGat nk bwAt uSrah..)

nYwaY, makcEklela a.k.a nQibah usRah tRdhUlu ajaK bWat, ktany ada anak angkt kt umah, bdk kariSma tmpng umah ntuk Prktikal dkt2 utara ne...

ingtkn sapE, rupE2ny kak aS(UM)..

kak mUs plak trketEmu sama kwn skOla aBim duLu-kak umMu..haha

pusing2 kOtnu kOtne, oRg y smE jgk, balEk tang tU gak..

afifah sayuti, afiFah sallEh, n dR. Rohani pn jOin gak, krE mEriah a..

daKwah n taRbiah menYatu n mEneMukn kmE sEmula..

uKhuWah itU indah bla brtEmu n bRpsah krn ALLAH...

SumaiYah n Ehsan-misS bOth of yU, cpatla balEk mlYsia yE, ipah pn da nk fly, tgGl ana soRng..

cEkgU's dAy

KAU bukakn cakerawala
curahkan tulus ilmu
mMbmbing lgkahku
mggapai tggi bntngku
tiada prnh brhenti
dgn sabar cuba buat ku mngerti
tiada hrga y mMpu mMpu mMbls jasamu
terima ksih GURU
KAU abdikn drimu ntuk semua
mNerangi glapny dunia
ikhlas hatimu bcara
KAU lkukn demi cinta
y kn mMbwamu ke syurga
oh GURUku
d hatiku, doaku ntuk mu selalu..
-kini aku krnamu

sK. tunku abd rhmn pUtra, k/n_tiche norliza, ckgu azizah, ustzh salmh, ckgu baha, ckgu tjudin, tiche razna, ustzh che kalsom, ckgu nazriyah, ckgu2 tusyen perdana ABC..
kigS_ckgu zeti, ckgu rahizah, ckgu hasniah, ckgu meriam, ckgu azneyati, ckgu syahril, ckgu che sham, ckgu aza, ckgu ridzuan, ckgu isniyati, tiche salmah, tiche minazura, ustzh hawa, ustzh nadiah, allahyarhamah ustzh maznah, ustzh aizat, ust lah, ust naser, ust hadzir,..er, bnyk lg y x ingt nma da....
cenfOs iiUm_mdm noredah, mdm norakma, mdm hayati, mdm zuraya, mdm hasni, ust hasnizam, ust azam, ust azhar, sir razak, mdm wan narmi, mdm sari nurdamayanti, mdm suraya..
n ntuk sume ckgu2, pendidik n tukang ngajaq scra lngsung or x lngsung...

i sincerely pray 4 all of you in contemplating wonderful iman, long umur, cheap rezeki, sehat olwEz, thanX 4 all de deEd all of yoU had done, n surely to xprEss my greatly gratitude of dis spiritual n physical nourishment-which de almighty Allah had, has, n i believe never stop provide..

All praises and thanks be to Allah, Lord of everything that exists.The most Gracious, the Most Merciful.Master of the Day of Judgment You (alone) we worship, and You (alone) we ask for help.Guide us to the Straight Way The Way of of those on whom You have bestowed Your Grace, not (the way) of those who earned Your Anger, nor those who went astray. Ameen

dE wheEls of lifE

funNy how it occur when we never realize..?

hOme-kejE..?

kejE spanjang cUti, xcEpt kejE2 y dnaMakan keje rumah, scra x rsminy jgk join my hand upOn kEjE2 ayahumi y x smpat diabEskn kt Opis..umi-besala, taip2 soklan ntuk xm skola, kdg2 tlg tnda paper(poyo la sat..), pastu tlg sdiakn jwapan ntuk soklan2 y da dsdiakn(ble lg nk tnjuk tere, ye x..?)eh, smalam umi da bg dwit upah jga bdak2 peksa 2 mnggu, hehe besnye dpt pitis..ayah plak, tlg key in data record hospital..hu, brula gue ngerti btapa boringny mnaip mklumat org msuk borang, dr num ic lma n bru, nama, address, agama, bangsa, status dri, status pnyakit, bla bla blaa...wktu ne la sgt2 mnghargai nma2 spt che jah, din or ali, n rse nk hempuk2 je nme puteri siti sharifah nadia zafirah bt ahmad zulkarnain hazrin ismail blabla..pnyele bjela meleret-leret nme, x pike ke nsib aku y kne tlg taip ne..?
tp, bab y best tu, smpay da bley hafal diagnosis pnykit, cntohny kalo kod o80.1 tu ntuk gynae ke, p59.9 ntuk paedytrics ke n many more..disease plak dr sesimple spider byte smpayla kpd kanser dlaman n hypertnsive, huhu..
but, de hard part is when it comes to discharge way..kalo y biase cam balek ke rumah ke, risiko sndri ke, kes polis ke, okeyla jgk, tp bla ade y discharge by MATI..gulp, trkesan n terkesima jua hadir..kdg2 baby bru 7 weEks pn da smpay wktu, inikn plak wrga lnjUt usia y kdg2 dftar kmarin, re ne da noktah..soalny, kite..?
hurm, ape2 pn, tunight, de job will still go on, key in that kind of data...again..

muEt..?

5 mEi_arrived nilai, thanX to maklang(demam2 pn sangGup antO..)
chEck in, 2nd persOn to rgSter..hihi..sbG org melayu, mst serOnok ntuK berkata-padan muka, gatal sgt nk dtg awai-haha, just de only 2 persOn in Blok E..
y laen2 sokny smpay..(fuih..)
7 mEi_spEaking went wEll(really..?), got anOther atiqah(bEn)+2 atirah(law)...
hek, de grOup beEn nicE, be+ pkenalan, hbungan, hopefully bpnjngan-indhny ukhuwah..
8 mEi_jOin iftar karisma, lme kt umah tnpa sbrang projek, bEst sgat..
+ knalan lg, Subhanallah..
10 mEi_wriTing, listEning n rEading-wawawa sit at MPN, sejuk banget...
lps tu, da xde aktviti...stay dlm bilik, g mkn, tgk tv, tido, bc mgzine daten pny..hUuuu
then, kak aya ajak g klcC ntuk cramah ust. Hasrizal bertOpik"aku terima nikahnya"-but, de very bad part is X JADI-which is very very very damn sad...=(
so, brtolak ke seremban ngn tira dat eVening...
shoke us-tyme nk lntas jln ke trminal 1, hmpir2 kmalangan brlaku dpan mata..!
there`s indian woman wit her daughter, i swear de light is red 4 vehicles, still a BUS run high speEd in front of us...
luckily, dat woman smpat tarik anak dy, tp sudahny dy y jatuh..
ktorang pn bgegas, "okay, madam..?"
c anakny x sudah2 "sory ma.." sbB c ibu bderai air mata..
then, suami dy da dtg n sure evrything under cntrl, ktorang pn jlan..
btapa tegar c ibu tarik anakny, x kesah tntg sndri..
gedabakny bus tu, besaw lg nilai nyawa anak tu pd seorang ibu..
Just suit, its MOTHER`S day tuday..!

right then, fleE to homEtOwn~

dE aMpanG pRincEsS

viEw prom roOm 534/535 ampang pUtri...huhU=]
eh, mcm suke plak..stay 4 tokyah n maktOk, alhmdulillah, opertion did well...
tp, still x bley gerak bnyk, almaklumla tulang blakang..
shari lps tu, tokyah da bley solat(duduk) + maktOk bley kuar..
alhmdulillah, skali lg dmudahkan kerja..!
roOm tu plak, waU, ni la kmajuan perUbatan..sglany ada..
bak kata apan;"waA, mcm hotel kn hspitl ne.."
dgn toilet n blik mndi, de foOds, de nurse, doCs, de serVis, bla bla..


wElL, de trUth-x sume org mampu rsa sume ne, y x mampu sdg amat memerlukn, msuk hsptl krajaan y nurseny just be nice when de relative is somehow kakitgan-so, say a syukur...

mohd sirhan hadi b addy hisyam...=)

cUti2..

1 Mei_08.o0am_bertolak,.tolng menyibOk..eh, silap..tolng memeriahkn rihlah pra mualimun smaz/sraz ke penang...follow bUs ngn van..fuh..!

hurm, smpt plak shot anual gathering bburung ne ha..nyway smpay penang dlm pkul 12.o0pm....trus ke pEnang Hill(tp, ptah balek sbb ramaAaai sgt org, tpksa boOk dlu..) so, kona la ke kebun bunga or nma saintfikny Botanical gaRden...untk mrakam aksi2 bnatang kgmaran Darwin(huHuuuU..)

x lupa gmbar sndri..huhu;]..n then, jln2 amek angen+tgk pkok2(mcmla x penah pegi..) ptah la balek ke pEnang hill, sbb dpt pkul 1 pny.._smpay, nak naek tanak..?naek tanak..?mcmla x penah naek, xde pe y best pn dlu..tp, last2 naekla jgk...ayah x, uruskn psal mknan...ust syahir tny,"x rindu kt ayah ke..?"..adoiy..!ktorang gelak je la, adeke plak..?pastu dy kater,"isy, bdak2 zman skarang.."ouch..hihi

donE, msukKan lwatan ke msjid ngeri(sbenarny nk g mkan kt c2..) fuh, msjid dy...agkny ne la untung duk country kaya even mnteri kafir..ruang utama solat tu air-cond lg, mcm ne la khusyuk solat ye x..?hehe..cewek matrek!

pastu, trus ke edu-care cntre sbg tmpt pnginapan..waU, hebat jgk tadika ne, mkn pn sOdap...mlm, progrm tzkirah bsm dR. danial zainal aBidin-xcitEd, x penah brdpan just bc buku n through tv jek b4-memperkasakan dakwah.!+ cket psl isu smsa(11 sEpt, israel n fitna..) dy ckap, kite mmg x bley hlang pe org bwat, pe org kater, just pcya tu suma keja Allah...then, bktiny dr sgla mcm prstwa n adegan, be+ rmai org kafir peluk Islam, ajaib kn..?

n then, sokny ktorang brtolak ke dsun pak syarif...ntuk barbeque..yea, makan..!smntara pra mualim mmbakar ayam, ktorang maen game, y dikelolakn by.....KAME..!(me, ipah, afifah..) hahaha...lwk btoy, de jgk sumbngan penyibOk ne..C= pastu, bsmillah makaaAn..

by waiting org abeh solat jumaat, makcek nora pndnobatkn ntuk mmberi tzkirah slpas zOhOr..

b4 dat, dy tny la ktorang(puak2 teEnagrs kt c2) ;

"kalo kite slah kt org, pe kite bwat.?"

"mstila mntak maaf.."-atiyah.logik.

"tp, mcmna kalo slah kite tu automatik slah jgk kt Allah..?"+ lg soalan.

hurm,.."contoh..?"ye la, nk tawu jgk kn, bkn ke kalo kite da slah tu, mmg dpt dosa, so slah la kt Allah..?

"contohny, kalo kite sukakn seseorng tu, kite slalu tringatkn dy, n kdg2 lupakn Allah..?"

fine, got it..teEnage matter, i guess..

"tp, kalo kite xde pn sukakn seseorng tu, btol ke kite ne slalu tringatkn Allah..?"trpacul soklan tu, x sengaja..xde la, tp i`ve read once, in some book-jgn slahkn perasaan kite pd org laen, kalo da smemangny prasaan kite x tntu suciny ntuk Allah-which does make sense..!

bukakla plak psanan yuSuf Qardhawy-mnusia itu x slamany khusyuk, tp jgn dbiarkn perasaan itu brlarutan hngga mmbuahkn sesuatu y tdk perlu dlm urusan keagamaan...

rihlah end there, lps mnyeberangi teluk dgn feri..huhu